i had this outburst of warm tears when you detected i wasnt alright. it's amazing how you're always the one who hit the exact buttons. yeah, miss you yet words just cant flow. it's been a.. sandpit i've fallen into. at times, helped above the surface by hugs and laughs. yet at times totally struggling to keep alive. been on this up/down thing, its as though i'm neither here nor there. sometimes i'm feeling all wrenched up within, and yet i just quietly listen to what you're saying. yet sometimes i flare up, and type CAPS to people on msn. i dontknow whats going on, i dontknow who am i anymore. i'm losing myself, i'm losing the bubbly side of me. everything's not alright, and i know that. dont say i'm nt matured, cus you dont even know who am i. seesaw moodswing is overwhelming me and i get angry at the slightest thing, and all jovial at the next moment. sorry, i'm nt perfect and cant be. and i'll make up my mind, myself. it might take time, but surely.

is it worth it?
let me work it.